| | Here's an interesting thing about life, some may know it already, some may not.
There are three types of life.
The living.
The dying.
The existing.
Your life is in one of those three states, or not at all. Which state it is in is mostly up to you, but everyone has their triggers.
My life tends to be a happy existence most of the time, punctuated by a few spurts of life.
What's kind of odd is that there's a interesting trend growing. existence always passes through small instances of dying before it hits living crest again. Even though it's been contained to the very few minutes when the conscience tries to sleep, so the walls are down enough to let it, it's still there. And it still sucks. Notice it's there, wake up and go back to existing till it's safe to sleep again. Who knows, usually dying goes away while I'm living, but as life changes you never can know.
But as I've said, It seems time to start living again. With any luck this spurt will last more than the usual couple of days, but who knows. You can't predict life, and you usually can't bend it to your will.
That's where most people seem to lose their intelligence and their wisdom. They try to bend life. They look at a situation and go, "Oh poor me, Oh this sucks, There's nothing i can do about it and it sucks! What so ever am I to do? If I only did this differently, if I only had known, if I only could read his/her/it's mind!"
Don't. Just don't. The trick to staying existing or living is to remember that you cannot predict life, and that you cannot bend it to your will. It can conform to your will, and you may affect things so that it is more likely to flow into a shape that is near your will, but if you try to bend it, you will waste time and life.
For everyone who is out there worrying, don't. For everyone who is out there grieving, don't. For everyone who is out there who doesn't know where to turn, don't.
Life is out of your control, and that's how things should be. What you have in your control is whether you are existing or letting yourself die. If you stay existing, you can work hard to make living happen, but don't be sad when it doesn't. Because there is no point worrying when you cannot change anything. Waste of time, waste of energy, waste of life.
I read my friends, and they remind me of this, so in a way I have to thank you all for keeping me existing. But in turn I must remind you the same thing i always have. Keep living, keep existing. That's the only way for life to be worth it. Don't shortchange yourself by letting life slowly kill you.
This is to Nick, This is to Brian, This is to Amanda, This is to David, among others. This is to everyone who can't make sense of their lives and keep running across trouble, and to those who have forgotten how to keep living.
Wake up guys. Life is too short, don't make it shorter. Our lives have been too short, there's very little history to it, and therefore very little set in stone. You can't predict the future, you can't bend life. But with so little path made, your lives can still go anywhere, so do what you can to give it a chance to go the way you want it to.
I will never regret anything i do while living. And I do not allow myself the luxury of letting myself die. That is the only thing you are allowed to regret, and the only way you're allowed to regret it is to let it remind you not to let it happen.
Bad shit happens? Take it and run. Don't worry about why it happened, other than to prevent it gain. Don't worry about what you could have done to prevent it, because it doesn't matter now. Just learn and go on. Work towards the future. Because it is our future, and If I make it there and you all don't.
I will be VERY pissed with you.
Peace
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| | Posted 4/16/2007 2:36 AM - 29 Views - 4 eProps - 1 Comment
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